A Persecution that is made for us to Be STRONG

I just got home last 2013 after Yolanda hit TACLOBAN my mission place. I was yet so happy being home and wanted to explore the things that i wanted to explore. Applying the things that I have learn from my mission. A year later, I felt being an RM is not easy . It takes a lot of effort to be able to remain the "missionary spirit" . I have been bash, persecuted many times of being an "RM" my uncle said that it was a mistake being a missionary and getting back into school seems like a crazy routine for him. I was crushed by what he said. Despite of that I was experiencing,I have the courageous attitude that's enough to be able to move on and press forward. I had callings in my ward. This has greatly blessed me indeed. I had so many weaknesses that I knew that being an "RM" is not a bases . I am not saying that i should have not gone on my mission but indeed it was a great help and even a blissful experience of seeing people's lives change. After a year of being home , i know I have a lot of things to learn. One night my mom said That people tend to say thing or commented that I needed to be more energetic, and trustworthy to be able to handed down a more fully great callings but it was not given to me because I am not showing to them what is expected of me being a "Returned Missionary" . These expectation sometimes affects me. I know the Lord give calling to people because he knows that they can give and entrust this work to them, not to impress people but to help them change lives .

I cannot afford to impress people . People might bash me of how i act but I know in my heart that I did my best . I am giving what I needed to give. I know i need to improve - I won't deny it as well. I know I sin and make mistakes because in spite that I am an RM I am a human too . Prone of mistakes and imperfection as well. I know I might not be the confident RM nor a not so Good teacher as well but for sure The Lord knows how the intents of my hearts is.

I know at some point too that these persecutions makes you more of how the Lord wanted you to be. He knows you can do it and He wants you to become strong daughter! He knows what you've been through and can definitely do more of what he Expected of you . I know that if I will just hold on to that Faith and Hope I can endure every persecution and trials that may go through my life . He knows my heart and intent ,that is the most important to me . He knows my capacity as well. The most important of all "HE LOVES ME and HE IS BOUND TO GIVE WHAT I NEEDED AS OF THIS MOMENT"

Hopefully that people who will read this might be able to understand that RM's are normal people too like you, trying to aim for perfection. They have heart and the service of the Lord is not an enjoyment time for them that you will just say " Para kang di RM" with all their heart , they serve the Lord Professionally, kindheartedly, and even the best of what they got. I am hopeful that we must understand each other's life. In these ways we may find joy and happiness as we help each one grow instead of bashing other's life. They most needed your support . Bashing them won't help them improve nor helping them achieve the Greatest capacity the Lord wanted for them. Why not aid them on what they really need . Love them, care for them and most importantly understand them. Remember that " You cannot judge their actions" .

What would A Holy Woman do?

This quote has struck me and gotten my attention today:

I came to think and ponder Am I a Holy Woman? and How can I be a Holy woman.While i was thinking of these questions running through my mind . I came to a point to have read this article from the internet . It is entitled "Women of Righteousness" by Russel M. Ballard. He emphasize how we as women become Holy Woman of God.

We should have these qualities as a Woman:

"More than ever we need women of faith, virtue, vision, and charity who can hear and who will respond to the voice of the Lord."

A woman who has Faith, virtue, vision and charity and responding to the Lord's Call. I remember gotten home from mission all of these things are taught to us by our Savior. But must needs to be continued as I continue my journey as a returned missionary. 

The Saviors example is one of the Best I have ever heard and imagine: Here is a quote from elder Ballard's talk.

The Savior’s Example

I have been drawn to an interchange between God the Father and His eldest and Only Begotten Son, who is the ultimate example of living up to one’s premortal promises. When God asked who would come to earth to prepare a way for all mankind to be saved and strengthened and blessed, it was Jesus Christ who said, simply, “Here am I, send me” (Abr. 3:27).

Just as the Savior stepped forward to fulfill His divine responsibilities, we have the challenge and responsibility to do likewise. If you are wondering if you make a difference to the Lord, imagine the impact when you make commitments such as the following:

“Father, if You need a woman to rear children in righteousness, here am I, send me.”

“If You need a woman who will shun vulgarity and dress modestly and speak with dignity and show the world how joyous it is to keep the commandments, here am I, send me.”

“If You need a woman who can resist the alluring temptations of the world by keeping her eyes fixed on eternity, here am I, send me.”

“If You need a woman of faithful steadiness, here am I, send me.”

Between now and the day the Lord comes again, He needs women in every family, in every ward, in every community, in every nation who will step forward in righteousness and say by their words and their actions, “Here am I, send me.”

My question is, “Will you be one of those women? And will you men who hold the priesthood answer the same call?”

Now, I know most of you want to. But how will you do it? How, in a world filled with deceptive messages about women and the family—and the significance of both to the Lord—will you perpetually respond to the Lord, “Here am I, send me”?

For those who really want to live up to who you are, for those who at all costs want to repent if necessary and who want to see through Satan’s deceptions, I have two suggestions: First, listen to and follow those whom we sustain as prophets, seers, and revelators. Second, learn to hear the voice of the Spirit, or the voice of the Lord as communicated by the power of the Holy Ghost.

To conclude may we including myself be more diligent in striving to be a Holy Woman of God. May we always remember that we are daughter's of a King who is our Heavenly Father who loves us so much. May we be filled with desires as we become better people. Filtering in our minds the questions : What would a Holy Woman Do?